Wonderful family party. She is growing so fast. It seems to be something new everyday. Now she loves to carry a purse and put things in it. She has now become very loving towards baby dolls and enjoys being a mommy to them. Where did my baby go??
After much thought and prayer we have decided to not pursue another adoption. Our hearts are very raw and hurting right now, so the explanations don't come easy. We know that this is the best decision for our family as our girls needs ALL of us right now. We will take our time in mourning the loss of our precious boy, but we know that this is the right decision to make. God will take care of the healing and help us move along in life. I will take a short break to let my soul and mind truly believe that this is the best decision to be made at this time. Please pray that I can begin to understand why this has to happen this way and I will continue to trust my God. He loves me and wants only the best, I must believe this and help my family to heal.
We missed our other travel mates terribly, but we did have a wonderful time watching our girls play together. Our girls didn't seem to have any "recognition" of each other, even though they spent the first 20 months of their lives together in the orphanage, but they did seem to like each other and played together as well as 3 yr olds can. It was so nice to see my friend D and catch up on our lives. The weather was wonderful and the company was even better. We had some awesome experiences and some horrible ones. The horrible one helped me teach my child (the 11 yr old) that drinking does make you really stupid if you do it wrong. These KIDS did it really wrong. Up screaming drunk until 3 am and only stopped because the police were called. We were somewhat cranky the next day but had a wonderful nap. We can't wait to get together with all our precious Anhui girls at Disney next yr.
We are busy decorating this week and updating our homestudy. I will post pictures of our child decorated tree soon.
Every call has a beginning. A quiet moment when God whispers a promise to a mother’s heart . A holy place where a father bows and faithfully accepts the journey set before him. A miraculous morning that unexpectedly dawns… Casting its first light on a chosen threshold. A gentle knock..a closed door opens, a sacred invitation sent by the Father.. leads to the other side of the world. Where lonely hearts stare out orphanage windows praying for someone to care.. and then one morning, on an ordinary day an orphan’s life changes... God sends them a second chance...Through you..
We are a family now, a whole,of which you are a part,and you are just as much our child as any in our heart. We do not love you differently,nor would we give up less of all that life has given us to bring you happiness.There is no limit to our love,no boundary you might cross,no price you may be asked to pay,no need to fear its loss. We are now one, the five of us,windows of one home. As long as we have life and breath,You’ll never be alone.~Nicholas Gordon
If I had my child to raise all over again,I’d build self-esteem first, and the house later.I’d finger-paint more, and point the finger less.I would do less correcting and more connecting.I’d take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.I’d take more hikes and fly more kites.I’d stop playing serious, and seriously play.I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars.I’d do more hugging and less tugging.~Diane Loomans, from “If I Had My Child To Raise Over Again
Thousands of starfish washed ashore. A little girl began throwing them in the water so they would not die. “Don’t bother, dear,” her mother said, “it won’t make a difference.” The girl stopped for a moment and looked at the starfish in her hand. “It will make a difference to this one."
Please consider adoption....it will make a difference to one child.