Jul 29, 2010

She....

I had great fun post processing

She is going to begin kindergarten in a few weeks.  I do believe she is ready....she does not.  She is having such a hard time with me going back to work...it has been part time during the summer, but still she has seemed to grieve all over again.  We are treading lightly where school is concerned, but she DOES know she MUST go.  She has such a tender heart.  I bet I hear, "I love you mom" a hundred times a day.  Sometimes it can get tiring but the great merciful God has given me infininate patience in that area ALONE. 

Change has always been such a huge deal to her.  She takes soooo long to recover from changes.  Kevin has been home 15 months....she hasn't really recovered from that.  I have begun a new job....that I love by the way.....and school is around the corner.  Our girl has been "unsettled" for such a long time now.  It begins to wear on your soul after a while.  Why can't she walk next to me in the store without CLUTCHING my hand?  It makes it hard to take things off the shelves.  She doesn't even want to venture out in the store with Hannah and Kevin.  She doesn't care what she will miss, because she is uneasy about leaving my side.

She is so deep within my soul it isn't to be understood.  It pains me daily that she is having such a hard time.  The joy she brings us is priceless and unmeasureable.  Her imagination is unending.  She loves to be center stage and play pretend.  My continuous prayer is that she find her peace within and truly feel that she belongs here.  That she can feel the security in her life and trust us to always protect her and keep her.

She is truly a happy and joyous child.  She loves her backyard and little brother (most times).
She loves to "dress for dinner" and a cape is always appropriate.  We love her to the moon and back.....and will continue to show her for the rest of our lives.

6 comments:

Diane said...

can you believe we are approaching the FOUR YEAR anniversery of 'the call'? can that be right? what wonderful little people our girls have grown into.

Wuxi Mommy said...

I didn't realize Claire was starting kindergarten, too, this fall. I know SuSu is really excited about going, but the reality is actually going to be difficult for her I'm sure. She takes a very long while to adjust to changes, and we're still seeing signs of the distress my hospital stay has caused her. They're so fragile and yet so strong. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. In many ways, I can relate.

Faith, Hope, and Love said...

So touching...so beautiful... God is good!!

luv
me :)

Julie said...

Sweet Claire will find her way, she loves her mama and life so she can't miss.

laurel said...

I sometimes forget the little things that can worry a child. I am sure she will end up loving kindergarten and that all will be well.

Best wishes. Good luck!

Sharon Ankerich said...

Dear Shelley,

You won the Brighton Straw Bag on my auction tonight! Thank you so very much!!! Please email me @
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Blessings!
Sharon

ps Your daughter is beautiful!!! :)





Every call has a beginning. A quiet moment when God whispers a promise to a mother’s heart . A holy place where a father bows and faithfully accepts the journey set before him. A miraculous morning that unexpectedly dawns… Casting its first light on a chosen threshold. A gentle knock..a closed door opens, a sacred invitation sent by the Father.. leads to the other side of the world. Where lonely hearts stare out orphanage windows praying for someone to care.. and then one morning, on an ordinary day an orphan’s life changes... God sends them a second chance...Through you..
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