She....

I had great fun post processing

She is going to begin kindergarten in a few weeks.  I do believe she is ready....she does not.  She is having such a hard time with me going back to work...it has been part time during the summer, but still she has seemed to grieve all over again.  We are treading lightly where school is concerned, but she DOES know she MUST go.  She has such a tender heart.  I bet I hear, "I love you mom" a hundred times a day.  Sometimes it can get tiring but the great merciful God has given me infininate patience in that area ALONE. 

Change has always been such a huge deal to her.  She takes soooo long to recover from changes.  Kevin has been home 15 months....she hasn't really recovered from that.  I have begun a new job....that I love by the way.....and school is around the corner.  Our girl has been "unsettled" for such a long time now.  It begins to wear on your soul after a while.  Why can't she walk next to me in the store without CLUTCHING my hand?  It makes it hard to take things off the shelves.  She doesn't even want to venture out in the store with Hannah and Kevin.  She doesn't care what she will miss, because she is uneasy about leaving my side.

She is so deep within my soul it isn't to be understood.  It pains me daily that she is having such a hard time.  The joy she brings us is priceless and unmeasureable.  Her imagination is unending.  She loves to be center stage and play pretend.  My continuous prayer is that she find her peace within and truly feel that she belongs here.  That she can feel the security in her life and trust us to always protect her and keep her.

She is truly a happy and joyous child.  She loves her backyard and little brother (most times).

She loves to "dress for dinner" and a cape is always appropriate.  We love her to the moon and back.....and will continue to show her for the rest of our lives.